I guess as of now, i must be silent. ive given this alot of thought but i still need more time, but time waits for noone. My thoughts manafest on my flesh, because im not one to hold back on words, but i cant now. I dont think she has a clue of how i think of her. she sees me as a good friend, she continues to tell me about who she likes which leaves me in a whole ive dug myself into. ive thought over and over agian about how she would respond if i told her cuz she knows i liked her friend. The chance came and i kissed her friend, but i told her i didnt want to when it happend, because the reality and honesty she doesnt know is that i wanted to kiss her. As i take a deep breath in disapointment, ill still be silent. ive told her that i feel i always end up likeing the wrong person because the truth is not what people lay out in first impressions, but i see through her, i see her pain, her insecurities, her past. Sometimes i dont know what to believe because ive been decieved before. People have told me one thing but ment another. Im so confused, my whole life has been nothing but confusion, a big ass puzzle with missing pieces.
Posted on Friday, 23 March 2012